I think it is safe to say that I have the days where I feel like nothing will ever change and I’m ready to give up and just load my car up and drive home while I still have enough room on my credit card to pay for gas… BUT then I remind myself that I’m here for a reason.
No one wants to have to be in a place of complete trust, complete dependence, complete necessity for God to do a miracle. Trust me, you don’t want to be there (here). I’m continually being taught obedience. It takes courage and faith. I’m not one to toot my own horn and that’s not what I’m intending to do, but rather realize that in the midst of hard times, it’s ok to have doubts, it’s ok to have a rough day with a few tears being shed. Those days will come even if everything is going well.
I have gone to a Bible Study a few times now with a group of young women, it has been refreshing. It’s different being the one that everyone is trying to get to know, I’m really not used to being in this place (feels like 20 questions). They all know each other and Morgin and I are trying to fit into the group, but at least they are trying to get to know us! They are great and it is interesting to see their views of the Bible without any background of who they are (for the most part). We’ve been going to through Genesis, chapter-by-chapter and really digging deep into each one. This last week one of the ladies brought up a really interesting fact. We’re in the middle of the story of Noah and she mentions first how evil the world must have been for God to wipe it out, and that’s usually what I think about, how bad was it? ‘Cause it seems pretty bad now. She went on to say that just proves how powerful the blood of Jesus really is. I have never thought of that. His death and blood are powerful enough to cover the multitude of sin that we now live in the midst of – and I’m covered by it.
It was just a really powerful thought, and He is the one that is caring for me now. He knows what I’m going through, and He is powerful enough. After spending a good portion of Thursday night awake, praying, thinking, tossing and turning, I woke up Friday morning and got a phone call asking me to come in for an interview. Obviously nothing is certain even yet, but it is a step in the right direction. So, Tuesday at 4pm I’ll be interviewing for a personal/admin assistant job in Pasadena. I’d love your prayers. This journey continues to amaze me as I see how blessed I am and how many people I really do have rooting for me in this adventure. So many are willing to talk to friends/family and help in anyway that they can. Thank you for being such a group of encouraging and uplifting people.
I leave you with this, a shot I took last weekend when I got to spend some time at the beach (gotta have a few perks, right?)