My life really is crazy. That’s the best way to explain it. i guess that makes me a little crazy too!
Every once in a while I get the opportunity to really stop and think about my life these last six-months… see. crazy.
I’ve been working at Storyville for almost 3 months now, and the 3 months before that I was in California. How did I get to this place? Where did these new friendships come from? What does the future hold for me? These are all questions that roll through my mind on a pretty regular basis. Obviously I don’t have answers to all of these questions, but I do know the steps that I took to get here. The obedience, the humility, the trials and most of all the time I have spent pressing into Jesus.
I’ve been doing my devotionals in Joshua lately, it holds some great stories and some great memories of where the Israelites have come from and where they are headed. They have entered the Promised Land and it is all getting divvied up between the tribes. This is the milk and honey, this is the bread and butter, this is what they have been taking steps toward for 40 years!
They still aren’t always totally convinced of God’s goodness in their lives though, still not quiet sure if it is all too good to be true. Is there another trek around the desert? Is there another enemy we have to defeat? I think I would say yes to both of those questions, there will be more time spent in the desert, and the enemy will come around again and again needing to be defeated. BUT God has the best intentions for them and for each of us. All throughout the book of Joshua the phrase “Be strong and courageous” is stated, it’s something that I think we need to remind ourselves often. God has our back, but we still have to step out, have courage and keep pressing forward into the promises He has given us.
I feel like I’ve come a long ways in the last six months, but I know that I need to remind myself of these truths on a daily basis, when things might not be going as planned or as relationships are changing, just knowing that God has the best in mind for me as I take these steps is a huge release and a burden that I don’t have to bare. Of all the relationships in this world, He isn’t manipulating me or forcing his hand… if I follow his lead and walk with an open heart, He’ll lead me to my promise land.
Thanks for bearing with me as I unfold and process my story.