Avoidance… is that a word?

I think that it is pretty clear that i have been avoiding this here blog the last couple of months. I guess, it’s just hard to express what I have been going through and what I have been feeling. God is still so amazing, that will never change!

I feel as though i’m stuck between these two worlds not really knowing where I fit in. I am home or should I say I’m in Poulsbo, WA. I feel as though my heart is spread out around the world in the people and lives that i have grown so close to in the last 6 months. I guess the hardest part is knowing that there are people out there that know what I have been though, that know the changes that have happened to me and were witnesses to them. At the same time i have people, family and friends here that have known me for years, they can see the changes too, but haven’t walked through them with me so they don’t quite know who I am.

I must admit, I’m not fully sure of who I am either! I know that I’m much more confident in who I am in Christ, and I know that I hear his voice all of the time. It just seems that it is a little harder to hear when I’m at home. I guess I wait and see what he has for me next…

Thanks for your prayers!

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